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On the top of the slide, balancing like a teeter-totter over the railing, I'd never felt so invincible. The high of the moment surged through me and I gnawed on my lip to stay present.

  It seemed like hours, but it was actually only seconds before I was accidentally pushed by an impatient fellow student.

  I tumbled, weightless, through the air. I had the last-minute foresight to cross my arm over my chest, which I'd later learn had protected my internal organs from being crushed by concrete and ribs.

  The impact of hitting the gravel below me knocked the breath out of me in a way that wasn't undesirable, nor was it unwelcome. The pain was there, of course, but it was a pain that was drowned by the high of being weightless, suspended above the world.

  A teacher pulled me upright and I heard her say words that sounded like we were underwater as she led me to the nurse's office. And as my arm was wrapped in a splint and ice was pressed over my face, I felt the first smile creep across my lips.

  "What's so funny?" the school nurse asked, her brown eyes crinkling at the corners in confusion as she pulled the ice pack from my nose and looked me over.

  Shhh, the voice warned, and so I stayed silent. Because I knew, as the daughter of a woman who was a slave to her own demons, to keep the dark pleasure I'd acquired from falling off a piece of playground equipment and busting my nose and arm to myself.

  It wasn't the last time I listened to one of those voices.

  Take a shot, it whispered at a high school party, which I did right before sliding down the resident rich kid's banister with just my underwear on, as I was cheered on by everyone who had merely seen through me before.

  Take a puff, the voice breathed, as a joint was passed around in a circle. I did, after the boy I had been crushing on blew smoke into my face. Later, I gave him a blow job in the back of his mom's car, in her garage. Like Titanic, but a lot less romantic. Still, the incident solidified my place in high school as the number one bad ass, a spot that belonged to me—the only thing that belonged to me.

  Snort it, the voice tempted me when I was eighteen and hungry for more. Once again, I obeyed, dragging my nose across a Playboy magazine spread out. Like an electric shock, the coke rushed into my bloodstream. That night, I jumped off a friend's shed into her pool and broke my jaw when I hit, face-first, into the bottom of the pool. It was the first time I actually regretted following the voice, until I later lost all the puberty weight that had clung stubbornly to my hips, during recovery.

  The voices never steered me wrong, because I always got something I didn't know I needed as a result. A high, fame, attention, and most of all: a sense of belonging.

  Every story has a "but" though, and he was mine. The voices did me many favors until they told me to talk to him.

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